Sally lost her husband two years ago. She’s slipping into finding solace in a bottle of scotch.
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Enough of Self-Pity
Bob Gillen
Sally eased her Subaru into the carport and carried coffee and a bag of bagels to the house. Her headache throbbed. Too much Johnny Walker Black last night. Her mistake – watching an episode of Jesse Stone on TV. In the story Stone had settled into his worn leather chair in his secluded beach house at the end of the day, his dog at his side. Stone told himself one drink was enough. Half a bottle later he fell asleep in the chair till morning.
Life imitates art. Sally had done the same.
Her drinking came too easy. Easy to enjoy. Easy to excuse. It had been two years since she lost Vaughn, her husband of forty years. Since then two more years of continuing to avoid alcohol, as she and Vaughn had promised each other years back. Enough alcoholism in our families, they had both agreed.
Sitting one night in front of the TV, watching a musical movie Vaughn had loved, Sally had broken into tears. A thought wormed its way into her mind. Why go on avoiding drinking? Vaughn is gone. What does it matter any more?
The result – two drinks every night. Until she knocked off half a bottle last night.
Sally opened the front door and put the coffee and bagels on the kitchen counter. She took a few gulps of the coffee. Cleared her head for a moment. She moved to the living room and opened the patio blinds.
“Hi, Sally.”
“Holy shit!” She clenched her hands into fists. Whirled around to find the voice.
“Vaughn?” A whisper.
A man sitting in her chair nodded.
Sally shook her head, blinked her eyes hard.
“Not possible. You died. Two years ago.”
“I came back.”
“How? Why?”
“Move away from the window. You’re backlit. I can’t see your face.”
Sally slid over to the couch and sat.
She saw that Vaughn was wearing jeans and his usual faded polo that still hung in his closet. The closet she had not yet cleared out.
“This isn’t possible. You were cremated. You’re dead. How?”
“Sally, I had to talk to you.”
“What? I’m dreaming, right?”
“I only get to do this once, Sally. Listen carefully.”
“Vaughn, you sound so business-like. It’s me. Sally. Your wife.” She leaned forward on the couch.
“I am limited by how much emotion I can bring to this visit. It’s real, but it isn’t.”
Sally again shook her head in disbelief.
“Sally, you’ve been drinking.”
“Is that what this is all about? A few drinks?”
“Your father was a nasty drunk. So was mine. We stopped drinking to avoid that for ourselves.”
Vaughn sat still, did not move to gesture or point. His face was almost expressionless.
“Enough, Sally. Stop before you get in too deep.”
“But it’s only me now. Who am I going to hurt?”
“Yourself.”
“Come on, Vaughn. You came back only to tell me this? To stop having a couple of drinks at the end of my day?”
Vaughn gave an almost unseen nod.
Sally jumped up from the couch and stared out at the patio. She ran her hands through her hair. She laughed. “Vaughn, my coffee is getting cold. Can I warm it up while we keep talking?”
No reply. Sally turned.
The chair was empty. No Vaughn.
She shuddered, hugged herself. Am I hallucinating?
She approached the chair. Patted the cushions. Ran her hands over the arms.
“Vaughn?”
Silence.
She dashed to the bedroom, looked in the closet. The polo Vaughn had worn still hung there, dust on its shoulders.
Sally edged back to the kitchen. She warmed her coffee in the microwave. Sliced and buttered a bagel.
Sitting in her chair, coffee and bagel in hand, a half-smile crept across her face.
She set the food aside, returned to the kitchen. She pulled a half-empty bottle of scotch out of the cabinet.
She watched the contents gurgle down the sink drain.
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